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[06 Nov 2007|06:24pm] |
Until I Have a Keyboard / Songs From Eve
Track Listing:
1. Round
2. Right Through You
3. If you Tried
4. If Only I Could Say This to Your Face
5. To be Free
6. Daydream*
7. It's Alright
8. Truths + Lies + Dreams
*Smashing Pumpkins cover (from their 1991 album Gish)
Lyrics
1. Round: I never thought that this much love could exist/But then I met you and I couldn't resist/The look in your eyes says that you feel the same/But no one taught you that love's not just a game//I see you 'round//You've got some baggage, but I've got some, too/Now nothing can come between me and you/What doesn't kill you makes you stronger, they say/So I can take anything that comes my way//I see you 'round
2. Right Through You: Have you ever felt like some disease/Contagious and air-borne so everyone breathes/You in/And they don't like you//Walk down the street, see the faces passing/Sometimes I wonder, what's their story/Is it sad/Sad like mine is//And I'm such a drama queen, but I can't help but speak the truth/And I see how I'm seen, but it doesn't matter, except from you/And I can't stand your eyes/Even you're convinced by your own disguise/But I can see right through you//I know first-hand how hard it is/To let people deep beneath your skin/And show them you/And have them hate you//I feel like I'll never be again/The spirit I was before all of this/Happened/But I don't blame you
3. If You Tried: Nights so short and days so long/Swearing to God that I'm not wrong/Trying but failing to be strong//Memory is my best friend/She holds my hand and helps me pretend/My happiness has yet to end//Now your photograph doesn't do much good/And you don't love me like I believe you could/If you tried/I'm wrapped around every word you say/And you could talk to me like you talk to her every day/If you tried//I can't explain how much you meant/When my sanity came and went/My heart's never broken, but it's been bent//I can't move on, but you already have/And you could tell me that you want me back/If you lied/Now photographs just aren't as good/As the thought of you loving me like I know you could/If you tried
4. If Only I Could Say This to Your Face: I don't know why you feel/Like you have to lie to be real/And you don't even like me/So why are you still here//I've moved on/To things that are better than anything/You have to offer me//You never cared when I needed you/But I was always there to see you through/The self-inflicted melodrama that you thrive on/You need me more than I need you//And I won't miss you as much as you must assume/'Cause I have discovered some better things than you/Your hollow promises of friendship neverending/Make me regret ever pretending to be friendly
5. To Be Free: Every cold autumn morning/I wake from dreams of living/The things my blood holds me tight to/Their hopes I can no longer fight through//Inadequacies are so easy/They come on so strong but soon leave me/I don't care what you want out of me anyway/Save your preaching and expectations for another day/Apathy has become so sweet/No more tears fall as my pen hits this sheet/Love is not something I'm proud of/A thing of my past is what it has become//I'll be free/Somehow/Just trust me/Somehow//I'm trying to make you happy/But I'm realizing what I'm sacrificing/I'm sorry that I'm not the person/You dreamed of, but it could be worse
6. Daydream: My daydream seems/As one inside of you/Though it seems hard/To reach through this life/Your blue and hopeless life//My daydream screams/Bitter 'til the end/The love I share, true/Selfish to the heart/My heart, my sacred heart/My daydream, dream/My daydream
7. It's Alright: It's nice to know that you were there/Even though I pretend I don't really care/I'm in love with a memory/Who you are is a shell of who you used to be, but//It's alright/I'll be fine//It's hard to let go of the thought/To let go of the habit that so long I have fought/I've convinced myself that you/Have the same feelings that I do
8. Truths + Lies + Dreams: Thank you for mistaking my/Insecurity for modesty/I saw beauty in my reflection/For a second, for just a second//I saw the person you told me about/She seems nice, and I'd like to spend more time/With her state of mind, and not mine//I know I seem happy on the outside/But sometimes that's a lie/I don't think I'm as strong as you think I am//No rhyme or reason to the season/But you're nice, and I'd like to spend more time/With your pretty lies, so let's try
To Download:
click here :)
I'll scan the art... once I make it... no promises when that'll be :)
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[08 Jun 2007|03:30pm] |
music myspace. harharharharhar
add me =) Now you won't have to go through silly song downloading to hear anything new.
http://www.myspace.com/jessicorawks
feel free to add me =D
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[15 Dec 2006|09:12pm] |
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If there was one song that you could share with the world, what would it be? Think really really hard about what you want people to feel. My biggest goal is to make sure people know that they aren't alone--teenagers in specific. Sure, there are more important things, but really... I don't see myself writing music about saving the homeless people. Music has always been something to help through personal issues. It's been there for me when I felt like no one else was--whether they really were or not is unimportant--and I think that as long as there is always emotional music that makes teenagers feel like they're going to get through something hard, life isn't as bad as it could be.
So think really hard of what you want to tell people. And leave me the lyrics of a song, and a youtube video/stream of it would be even better. It can be live or a music video.
I thought really hard, and the song I would want to share with the world is "Mayonaise." It's always been beautiful to me. Always. So even if you've heard this song a million times, and even if you didn't like it before, please take these few minutes to just sit and listen to the music and read the lyrics. Really focus in on the song. Stop doing everything and anything else. I promise to return the favor ;]
So without further ramblings, I present Mayonaise:
Live from the Siamese Dream tour
Live from the Machina tour
Totally different sounds... I suggest you listen to both if you have the time =]
( lyrics )
Sorry if the lyrics are off... you know how Billy can't pronounce his words...
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[26 Oct 2006|05:20pm] |
Jessica has a new iiicon!
TORI AMOS WOOO! Love that lady!
I got a 95% on my band play testing mini-band thingy... which is AMAZING. The highest sax score... even though it doesn't even count because Eddie got a 92% BUT HE PLAYED THE TRUMPET PART. What a freakin' genius...
My Spanish final was SO easy I almost peed. If I get anything below a 95% I'll be toootally amazed.
On the 6th Phil, Nikole, Brit, and I are having a RENT party. Phil hasn't seen it O_O No one I know is going to go through life without seeing this movie.
I also need to burn Phil Mellon Collie. I told him that we can't date if he doesn't like it. harrr harhar. no, seriously.
just kidding, actually.
hahahah
not that it would REALLY matter either way.
*gigglesnortfacecheekbutteater*
that's what I said.
*snap*
uuuh what else? Half day tomorrow! YAY!
Anddd I love Profe. He's frickin' awesome. My favorite teacher AFTER Jensen but he doesn't even count... he's like frickin' JESUS! Just kidding.
I love Jesus, by the way. I've been praying a lot lately. Not really asking for anything, anymore, just talking. Sometimes out loud, sometimes to myself to avoid strange looks and looney bins. =) But I feel like my relationship with God is getting stronger by the day.. and that makes me happy =)
Love,
JessicO!
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[08 Aug 2006|12:43pm] |
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) scars_guitars is my new music LJ. I'm going to add everyone on this friends list, so add me back if you want to hear some more stuff. Not gonna ever post any songs HERE again. All gonna be in the other one :)
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[20 Jul 2006|02:20pm] |
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"Smells Like Teen Spirit" Tori Amos |
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http://youtube.com/watch?v=x13eEQP9kDQ&search=tori%20amos%20live
Love you, TORI AMOS OMG YOU ARE AWESOME!
Now I actually know what the lyrics of this song are... Sorry, Kurt, love ya, but you really don't pronounce your words very well XD
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[20 Jul 2006|02:02pm] |
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"Crucify" Tori Amos |
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We never see people, and we never know people. What we see and know is reflections of ourselves on others. We think "Oh this is different from me," whether we realize it or not. Or "Oh this is the same as me, horrah." We never see people, just ourselves.
I learned that depressing fact from Chuck Palahniuk.
And yet, I'm in a good mood right now? A very happy mood. Hrm.
LOVE,
JESSICO!
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[20 Jul 2006|01:11pm] |
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"Got Love to Kill" Juliette and the Licks |
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Three Pearl Jam songs for Kristen, and whoever else wants them :)
"Alive"
"Why Go"
"Black"
There ya arrrre! Thanks for saving me from house cleaning XD I needed an excuse to take a break :P
LOVE,
Jessico!
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[13 Jul 2006|02:52am] |
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So take back that last entry.
I feel like I'm going to puke...
I want my bass amp. I learned the bass tab for "Got Love to Kill," and it's super fun. Too bad it would be more fun if Renee didn't hate me right now.
I feel like crap. crap crap crap. I feel like crapping out my heart and nailing it to a wall and letting random passers-by play darts with it, and then eating it again and pooping it out once more to flush it down the toilet, chase it into the sewer, then stomp on it a few times.
Then I feel like gouging my eyes out and drinking them through a bendy straw, then crapping them out too and repeat the process as described in previous paragraph.
Then I feel like crying out of my empty eye sockets and curling up into a tiny ball and crawling under a cold, hard, lonely rock to wither away from my useless existence.
Happy freaking birthday... still...
Way to be melodramatic, Jessica. Too bad I'm too depressed to lecture myself about how to behave.
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[24 Jun 2006|07:38pm] |
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So.
I went through and deleted quite a few people from my friends list. Not because I hate you or because I think you're an idiot or anything so silly as that, just either a) you never commented on my journal, b) I never commented on your jounal, or c) you haven't updated your journal in 98273489327 years.
If you REALLY REALLY want to be added back, comment here and I probably will, but otherwise, nice "knowing" you, and I wish ya'll the best *tips hat*
Jesspeeca
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[23 Apr 2006|08:10pm] |
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[02 Apr 2006|12:58am] |
Teasers:
9// 14//
( 20 Heaven icons )
Terms:
-Textless can be used as bases (and if you want me to put text on any textless ones, just let me know and I'd be happy to)
-I think credit is silly, so only credit me if you want to
-Comments are lovely :)
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[26 Mar 2006|09:35pm] |
(I'm well aware that I already have a FO post, but I lost the date and wanted a new picture, so there ya go)
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[22 Mar 2006|03:46pm] |
You know what I want to do?
I want to raise money from people, like a fundraiser (go figure...) and donate all the money I raise to a REAL organization... This organization, to be exact.
Thank you, RENT. Thank you, Freddie Mercury, for inspiring me to MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
So I'm wondering... would it be, like... illegal for me to do this? To organize a run/walk (oh look, Nicole, I'm just like you!) or stand outside with cans at wal mart, etc. I'm kinda confused as to what I'm allowed to do... because it's not like I'm a licensed non-profit organization.
to anyone who has done this sort of thing: What can I do and what can't I do? Help would be lovely. I've been looking around online but haven't found much of anything yet....
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[25 Jan 2006|03:05pm] |
Tomorrow, January 25th, 2006, marks the tenth anniversary of the death of Jonathan Larson. Please take some time today to reflect on the beautiful gifts he's given us, especially Rent. Please also take some time today to read about Marfan Syndrome, which is the illness that lead to Jonathan's early death. Please go to Marfan.org for information. If you can, please make a donation.
Also, please check out:
The Jonathan Larson Performing Arts Foundation, which was created by Jonathan's family to provide financial support and encouragement to artists.
Broadway Cares, a AIDS fundraising orginization.
One more thing...please pass this post along in your own journals/Myspace/whatever. One thing we should do on 1/25 is increase awareness of Marfan Syndrome. It would be appreciated.
Special thanks to potatomistress for the idea of increasing awareness of Marfan Syndrome and forget_regret_0 for the initial idea of making this post.
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[18 Jan 2006|06:32pm] |
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[07 Sep 2005|07:05pm] |
join that!
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[03 Sep 2005|08:49pm] |
For every person that comments here, I'm donating $1 to the hurricane relief.
Comment once, and only once. But get other people you know to comment.
THIS GUY -- http://www.livejournal.com/users/shadbolt75/53974.html -- started it, and other lovely people have taken up the torch when he couldn't give any more. I'm doing my part now.
C'mon now, comment me!
EDIT: I have decided to put the cap on at $101 (just like you, Mel!) I'm sorry, but I don't think I can handle much more! Thank you ALL for commenting. It really is an amazing thing. I encourage you all to post this and help those in need!
Thanks again,
Jessica
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